The day started with grey skies.. and as I stood and looked at the house I felt so sad... all that history, care and loving attention, literally gone up in smoke. It may sound ridiculous but as I stood there looking at the house there was a lump in my throat.
As I put together this blog post, I am in tears. Was visiting Clandon today the trigger for a reaction to my Mum's passing three weeks ago tomorrow? Added to this some inconsequential (by comparison) news today I could have done without!! I don't know... but as I type this I am in tears... I've shed some for seconds over the last few weeks... perhaps today is the day everything catches up with me!
I really hope that Clandon can, in true Phoenix style, rise again from the ashes.. all that history in it's fabric and contents... let's keep everything crossed that this is the case.. onwards and upwards as we say!!
A short visit and then, as Polesden Lacey was so close I had an impromptu visit...
Despite the huge field they are in.. the cows all huddled together
I was hungry when I arrived.. so indulged in a cream tea... back to normal next week
They were still huddling on my way out!
A strange day but ended in sunshine..
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2 comments:
I can understand the trigger for your tears. I still get blindsided by tears for my Mother, even these 3+ years after she died, triggered by things that at first don't seem related at all. But deeper reflection shows a link that my subconscious mind picked up on. Strangely, the tears have become almost a comfort, reminding me that she is still present in my heart. My thoughts are with you.
Wilma.. thank you for your kind thoughts.. I don't feel quite so alone now.. and yes.. odd triggers and totally unpredictable I find...
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